1. |
Luminaire (+)
04:34
|
|||
|
There’s a pressure in my head
Or a looming sense of dread
Haven’t checked my phone all day
Every thought is delayed
Rose in terror from my bed
Read a text that only said,
“You are not the only light,
You are one in a long line”
Sorry I haven’t answered back
Words move slowly through the feedback
I hope you are doing well today, I’m ok
I still need you
To tell me that its light that we move through,
Though I know it
Hung in the room,
The current is a specter of the bloom
That we flow in
Each little move
Reverberates across dependent moods
Without warning
I am consumed
By echos of the silence I exhume
Every morning
|
||||
2. |
Cherish All
04:29
|
|||
|
It's hard to see
The twisted lines beneath your feet
Strung back in time
A tangled tree, unspooling twine
The branches climb
They pull me up each time
I'm more than me
A part of me
Stitched in a shrine, a tapestry
Of many lives
Not mine to keep, on borrowed time
The next in line
Cherish all you inherit
A thousand strings
Passing down rings in offering
To ancient family lines,
Still forming
A hand-me-down
Out of shape now, a bit worn out
It never fit quite right
But I'll wear it
|
||||
3. |
No Elegies
04:33
|
|||
|
There’s someone at the door, an absence
A silhouette feedback
Just something to ignore, it’s thoughtless
I’d never answer back
It’s all the same to me
The sound means nothing
I hear it every day
And it is growing mundane
(We stand in circles and keep our voices low)
I’ve heard it all before, the pounding
The distant muffled voice
A symptom of the floor, no grounding
It’s only static noise
I’m not ashamed to be
A life means something
I’m followed to the grave
But I am not there today
No elegies for me
Not while I still live and breathe
|
||||
4. |
Heavy Sleeper
04:34
|
|||
|
I don't know how to be known
Or what to say
So I spend the whole day
Undersea
I don't wake to minor quakes
I rest my head
Along the seabed
Silently
Come down slow through undertow
And find a place
That will be here always
Any way
Sleep heavy, come lay with me
And trust your name
Will still be the same
When you wake
|
||||
5. |
The Ruins Dim
04:51
|
|||
|
Theres a divide between the words I mean to say
(My nails are growing, they’re long again)
That’s feeding the time it takes to feel how much they weigh
(They’re sinking into all my friends)
There have been times I’ve thought of being someone else
(They’re carved into the roof of my mouth)
But I only try for better versions of myself
(A sharpened muscle, pointed out)
I can be shitty
I know, that’s on me
I won’t try to hide
I’ll own my own mind
Don’t let the ruins dim
Shine a light on them
Every stone unturned
Holds a lesson learned
|
||||
6. |
Envoy of the Light
04:47
|
|||
|
Gathering, the winter burns out
And we are glowing
Sprawling out, I watch the rays sprout
And dance across the floor
I want more
I want to be as they are
(The tone rings on and on)
Scattering, the winter draws in
And I am freezing
Try to radiate the cold skin
But I can't find the glow on my own
So I put on my coat
Envoy of the light
Envoy, will you come around?
Once again, the frozen pond
I'm falling over before long
"At least you're trying to be strong"
And that should be enough
But every time I slip I hear
The constant ringing in my ears
They say it's just the passing years
But I've heard it all my life
|
||||
7. |
Sun Festival
04:57
|
|||
|
Some lanterns move in sequence
Each one another beacon, mapping out the path
But others hang in corners
Forgotten, falling over as the rest move on
Not in the right line, not even on time
And it feels like burning out before you rise
Your heart is always in there
Your love is not a cinder, to be burned away
So try and pick yourself up
I know you’re feeling fucked up, 'cause I feel it too
What looks like confidence is really self-defense
And it’s nothing like your honest hesitance
We're all vessels upon a vessel,
And even celestial bodies tremble
So don’t you worry at all
Your spirit burns so bright
Sometimes it’s hard to look right in your eyes
That doesn’t mean I’m not on your side
You’ll find the right place, just a little bit late
But we’re sure as hell still gonna celebrate
You always glow so bright
Sometimes it’s hard to see right, but it’s fine
I love you like the sun in the sky
|
||||
8. |
Dream Lives
05:27
|
|||
|
The things I see are not the same
As what you see, not exactly
Every single life, distinct, creating its own reality
Billions of worlds, collapsing in
I feel the weight of everything
Draped around my dream of life, a beautiful wall of static light
And I only trust what I see
What separates love from anxiety?
Shades of the same dream
Lately I’ve noticed tremors that lie
In corners of my eyes, just out of sight
Distant warning, I don’t know what it means
I can’t stop listening to the sound
I’m either breaking out or breaking down
Cracks are forming, I don’t know what it means
Am I learning how to be bright,
Or is it a trick of the light?
Shades of the same dream
There are times when I’m convinced I’m only a burden
But I tell myself it’s just an absence of sun
So I step through the wall to the other side
I think I'm going blind
And I don’t believe my own sight,
The presence of everyone in my life
We live in shared dreams
And I’ve gone as white as the light
That falls in this place across every face
We live in shared dreams
My world collapsing, what lovely churning
Peace in the breaking
|
||||
9. |
[emergence]
02:00
|
|||
10. |
Returner (-)
05:14
|
|||
|
I know it’s exhausting sometimes
And I know you’re feeling it tonight
But watch the way the current blankets your eyes,
You are not the only light
If you need a little space, that’s ok
(You should do what you want to)
If you need to take some time, that’s fine
(You should do what you want to)
If you need to be alone, then stay at home
(You should do what you want to)
You don’t always have to fight, it’s alright
(You should do what you want to)
I'll just fade away
I didn't want to say anything today
I didn't want this love
But
Wherever I go, just know
I will return, I will return
Even if you can't follow
I will return, I will return
|
||||
If you like Cloud Ellyn, you may also like:
supported by 5 fans who also own “You Are Not the Only Light”
go to album
supported by 4 fans who also own “You Are Not the Only Light”
Perfect music for writing and translating. In Oblivion has been on my playlist forever, and this one is even more magnificent. Thank you
go to album
Fossor, in Pieces
by Cemeteries
supported by 4 fans who also own “You Are Not the Only Light”
All the tracks are great. I enjoy the haunting sound and connection with places. Thanks!
go to album
The lush dream pop of A Beacon School combines effervescent melodies with driving percussion.
go to album
Recorded in a bedroom in Santa Fe, Velvet Vision presents four gorgeous, synth-propelled songs with dreamlike vocal melodies.
go to album
Selected Works 1983-86
by Scribble
Strangelove Music refurbishes six balearic stunners from Scribble, hidden heroes of Australia's ’80s dream-pop scene.
go to album
An absorbing reissue of enigmatic Osaka group Viola Renea juxtaposes both ancient and modern sources of sonic inspiration.
go to album
